Yeah man

I need a fitness partner!! Anyway, I've been to the gym for both of the last 2 days. I've done abs, some upper body work and cardio. I'm pretty sore today, so I don't know what I'm gonna do, I may just go and do some light cardio and let the sore muscles recover. I have to return to work tomorrow morning, so unless I get in to work out really early I might not make it tomorrow. Although, I could go after work, but I'm generally down for the count when I get home...
Anyway, I'm back in the fight with round 3. I'm not gonna impose any specific workout schedule on myself as yet. I'm just gonna see what I can do during my work days. I've had the last few days off so I've been able to get to the gym easily, but before or after a 10+hr shift with an hour drive and getting ready for work, etc, (works out to a 12 hour day) I have found it difficult to get exercise included in my day. But now I've outlayed the moolah for gym membership, that may provide that extra motivation. I've had good exercise habits in the past, I just need to get past this darn inertia that's set in over the last few months, and I think I'll be fine.
The next challenge, aside from exercise, is of course diet. Well, yesterday I went to the grocery store and bought some fresh fruit and veges and some nuts. I'm going to try to steer myself in that direction instead of thru the drive thru at Burger King


My living arrangements at present are that I live in the bottom part of a house where I kind of have my own little apartment. I have a "kitchenette", well, not really, just a fridge, toaster and microwave, and I just never go upstairs to use the main kitchen. Not that I can't, I just haven't been. Consequently, I've fallen into a routine of eating easily microwavable things or, too often, popping out for fast food.
I also work at a bagel bakery, and the unhealthy choices there far out number the healthy. Recently I've been trying to eat salads, but the problem with that is I don't really like salad that much. That's really the big challenge of diet for me, I seem to prefer by nature foods that are poor health choices, like pizza and cheeseburgers and so on. Things like tofu and celery I have to force down. So it seems like making the healthy choice is always a case of self denial, which is not something I'm very good at. In any case, I've also been allowing myself to stop too frequently at mid range restaurants to eat, and as often as not I'll make not only an unhealthy choice, but a financially unhealthy choice. In other words, I'm spending too much damn money eating out. It's these damn hedonistic tendencies I need to beat down...
I have these aspirations to be fit and healthy, and I've gotten myself in pretty good shape more than once over the years. But I've discovered that it all goes down the drain in the blink of an eye as soon as I allow myself to slack off, the last few months a case in point. I need to develop health and fitness into a lifestyle that stays the course over the long term. It seems like I'll do well for awhile, then I'll slack off and veer off into the ditch, and after getting sick of seeing my grotesque physique in the mirror and seeing my clothes get too tight and my shoe laces become further and further out of reach, I'll reach critical mass (literally) and snap myself into action and do something about it. Well, that's where I'm at now. Critical Mass!!
The fear is that I'll just give in to the bulge, that I'll just join the bloated ranks of the society by which I'm surrounded. I see overweight and out of shape EVERYWHERE, it's almost tempting to just say "what the hell, enjoy life, stop tortuing yourself with exercise and broccoli" (actually, I like broccoli...) I can see complacency threatening to gather like a cloud around the fringes of my psyche, but NO I won't give in!!





I want to be in shape, I want to fit into my nice clothes, I want to be able to run up a flight of stairs again and not collapse at the top. I will be fit and healthy dagnabbit

With that, I'm going to the gym.... And afterwards I intend to eat something HEALTHY!!! (and inexpensive, if that's possible

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K
